From Cancer is a Cage - Is this what disease does to us....?

Torn down, not built up. There doesn’t seem to be anything good about me – not a single thing I can name. I wish I could be validated – but why do I need to be? My sense of self becomes so shaken in the presence of others. I feel like such a failure, someone to be pitied. Man – the people staring at my head yesterday! So – if I were to admit / acknowledge my anger - what would I be angry about? Instead of “raging inwardly” how would I express it? Why am I so afraid of anger? What are good reasons to be angry? Who would I be angry at? - E.B.